today is 5th of june

weird, somebody asked, " Does today remind you of something?" For the first μsec i thought: "maybe it's the birthday of somebody or something like that", i said μsec because the sender or the cc or bb or aa or ay 7aga are not contacts that would remind me of a birthday for instance so the time i needed to catch up with the kind of mail was not that long, but the disaster is that my reflex arc is about these things now, and the real disaster is that when i knew what all the bells were about, which is el naksa by the way, my first reaction was: "really?!?!, is this the date?" "la 7awl wala quowata ella bellah", i became THIS eventually, nobody cares about anything anymore, or let's face it: " I dont care about anything anymore" i really need a reconstruction plan or " inny men al halekeen".